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I'VE HAD ENOUGH!

April Parker

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I'VE HAD ENOUGH!

I hope during this quarantine you’ve had time to gather your thoughts and reboot in some areas. I can truly say that this thing has been challenging. I’ve been up, down, hanging on the edge, and pulling myself back up again. All while watching those around me go through the same cycle of emotion or more. We’ve tried to do everything under the sun, but deal with our shit. When do you tell yourself “I’ve Had Enough?” 3 things I’ve learned during this quarantine: Do what you want, Say what you feel, and Give what you can.   Do Quarantina...


Isolation

April Parker

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Isolation

A married couple got up in front of the church today and spoke about infidelity. That is a tough subject that no one ever wants to talk about, especially in front of the church. The Mrs. said something that I could relate to. She spoke about isolating herself because she felt that no one would understand her pain. But she stopped and said, "Thats what the devil wanted me to believe..." Isolation has always been the easiest thing for me to do when I go through a storm. Being alone helps me process my thoughts and make sure I'm making...


Testimony by Jazmon Grace

April Parker

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Testimony by Jazmon Grace

Growing up life was not hard but I made it hard on myself because of the path I decided to take. All of my life, I always wanted to be the center of attention. So I did what was necessaryto have all eyes on me--the good, the bad, the funny and the ugly. Living in a single parent household was definitely challenging because there were just some thing’s a mom could not teach her daughter that only a father could. That is where I went wrong. I started looking for love in all the wrong places instead of loving myself...


A Trail of Broken Pieces

April Parker

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A Trail of Broken Pieces

At the age of 28, I find myself falling into the trap of letting the internet rush me. Rush me into thinking that I don’t have a lot of time, I’ll be alone forever, or I have to rush every situation I get into. Society is dangerous and will have you thinking it’s you…”I’M THE PROBLEM.” For 3 or 4 years now I’ve been involved in “situationships” that inevitably could have been easily comparable to trash. I’ve compromised on things that I myself would have deemed as deal breakers and all because of my intense desire to love and be...


WHERE IS MY CROWN?

April Parker

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WHERE IS MY CROWN?

November 12th , 2018 my life took, what seemed at the time, a drastic turn. I was indefinitely relieved of my duties as an educator; resulting in the painfulness of leaving my students whom had impressed so much love and appreciation upon me. I felt deprived of my joy, motivation, and optimism, which instantaneously engulfed me into a whirlwind of emotions. I was depressed and angry at my reality and had no idea what to do. Crying out to my higher power didn’t seem to satisfy the anguish I was experiencing, and I found myself going deeper and deeper into my emotions. I began to...